I always thought I had to write about the BIG stuff

Over-thought and didn’t write at all

Feb 02, 2025

I can still put so much pressure on myself

I think why shouldn’t I just write a few words everyday, when I can? Not considering their ‘quality’. Being free to express and release. Almost like a journal blog or a poetry diary.

When it comes to writing, I’ve had (and have) flowing ideas, but can over-examine and, therefore, don’t act.. getting stuck.

I create this imaginary, high standard that I could, then, never achieve.

So, what,

I don’t try?

This is like therapy to me and matters.

We all are unsure of ourselves

There are phases where I feel my words are insignificant.

Interesting and deeply profound topics are the only way to go - Pressure on, then! What could I even have to say?

We can write about the everyday

Maybe that’s what writing is

Writing about the everyday, nothing, things

That are everything -

and life

My writing is also the everyday, through a lens of ADHD and trauma.

I care about that.

empty tunnel pathway with graffiti walls — Photo by Hin Bong Yeung on Unsplash

I couldn’t possibly write anything.

‘Perfection’ was what was expected.

I’d need to be an ‘expert’.

Often, I write about what is in my gut and what I don’t even know I feel, but can then articulate in that way. It feels powerful to me.

It’s not scientific knowledge, or lots of theory, but it’s my experience.

Just one perspective.

I always think that when schools, businesses and the medical community are thinking more widely about support for ADHD adults, for example, that the people they need to speak to

are those that have actually experienced it!

That have felt alone, invalidated and misunderstood.

Everybody within that will have different feelings and experiences, yes, but speaking to those with first-hand knowledge, surely, is the place to begin.

And when it comes to my writing, to expressing who I am and how I got here, I sometimes have to force myself to believe for a split second, relax and just get writing, before my brain has the opportunity to stop me..

Hyper focus can feel blissful if I get there.