Looking back from New Horizons

People pleasing to feel safe, trying to move forward

People pleaser

I give, gently, kindly

Almost, silently

You bolster up your fortress

and fill in my space

I realise I didn’t give for nothing

I gave for safety

I am the bubbles and your slabs destroy me as you pave

Throw the concrete down with sealant

All I wanted was to be gracious through guarded vents

And when you crucify my boundaries

We curse little me, as I relent

I flexible

You rigid

I give, you only take

How did I become what you only

settle for

Safety I aspire for

Never conquering

the unreachable

A waveform dreading the next bend

I’m a person

not a transaction

Give pieces of myself

I cry

Wait to see your reaction

I didn’t give freely

I gave because I wanted to feel safe

I want the world to be gentle

I want to feel free to leave

and supported to live outside of my cage

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