‘Pretty’ confuses me, discomfort in my own skin. When people ‘define’ you, because you put a dress on. What is deserving of this ‘attention?’ Being me. Uneasy days and times. Don’t know how to understand this. Blog. Hope. What changed? Tarastar. Writing why? ADHD poet. Trauma. Topics, unrelated topics, lots going on, poem release. Well that ‘went on’ a bit (!) Not about any one, or real, person Long poem. Some notes, without explanation. On writing. Poetry as a release, poetry as hope Excavating feelings, expressing (still need to feel) Helping me cope. Lungs filling up. Poetic side notes Dissociate. Calm. Looking to find Poetic side eye What I think about If I don’t see it it’s not there Closing eyes to pain gaslighting. misogyny. Shame over needing Words help me, rearrange
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‘Pretty’ confuses me, discomfort in my own skin. When people ‘define’ you, because you put a dress on. What is deserving of this ‘attention?’ Being me. Uneasy days and times. Don’t know how to understand this. Blog. Hope. What changed? Tarastar. Writing why? ADHD poet. Trauma. Topics, unrelated topics, lots going on, poem release. Well that ‘went on’ a bit (!) Not about any one, or real, person Long poem. Some notes, without explanation. On writing. Poetry as a release, poetry as hope Excavating feelings, expressing (still need to feel) Helping me cope. Lungs filling up. Poetic side notes Dissociate. Calm. Looking to find Poetic side eye What I think about If I don’t see it it’s not there Closing eyes to pain gaslighting. misogyny. Shame over needing Words help me, rearrange