For me..

Hope, I’m so ‘delusional’, making it ‘about me’

Painting my walls or doing

anything nice for myself and my environment feels like I’ve been

in a verbally abusive

relationship with myself

for much of my life and

I’m slowly moving out

of it

No longer prepared to beat

myself up internally

I slip into those routines and

habits, though

It feels insidious, but there is hope

I carry the weight of what happened,

and what I told myself as a result,

The nothingness would have been spray

painted all over me, internally

Now, I know I deserve more

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Tara star,