Child me

I wrote an after - a powerful Jennae Cecelia poem that I absolutely adore

I went for coffee with my younger self after @jennaececelia on Instagram 


I went for coffee with my younger self
I was there, fully
Feeling Earth beneath my feet
My eyes shone 
Lit up when I saw her
Like for those I love the most 
Didn’t feel I could do that for me 

She told me that she felt lonely
That they thought she was vacant
but, whirring, spinning, drilling 
Far from empty, on the inside 
They praised her for her smartness 
The little voice told me she needed 
cuddles
and craved reassurance
To be seen for her heart
Because that’s what will teach
her to thrive

I saw her legs hanging down
Small and vulnerable, on the chair
But, she wrapped her fingers round
the cup, like I did
She seemed so glad of our
one on one time 
Nervous, cautious, but I smiled

and she was happy to be there


She saw the cheekiness
The rebel soul
That never left when I grew up
And I told her she’d always 
be more than huge smile 
and big teeth
(became tits too later)
You don’t have to reach for 
the weeds of pretty
You’ll forever, into eternity,
be enough 

Wading through tall grasses
You don’t get attention through 
bowing down to people
Or trying to be sweet
You are more beautiful, and sweet
and gentle, if anything,
When you feel connected
and don’t need to try 
Try to let all you can, release

She shook and trembled 
as she leaned forward
and, with a confidence,
Could take my hand 
Weeping as I put my arms
around her
This moment would drain 
into our psyche 
Not trauma, like trickling sand

There are moments you’ll remember
When you heard that someone
talked about your honesty
Or when someone implied you 
are important too
In this moment, as I re-play
and re-configure it
I want to, perfectly, imperfectly
Be with you

Wipe your cheeks when you 
feel like drowning
But, never ask you to stop
Give my chest and my shoulder
Your small body curved
into me 
I will wrap you
Warm and soft

Envelop the feelings
That will stay with you
all your life
Because when you know
what the truth is
And someone tells you 
you’re a loser
You’ll know what’s wrong 
and truth was fed by my arms
And softness with you
Tides and waves to wade through
But we know where 
the core of me stands
We know 

You know, what is right 

Tara star poetry

Heartbreakingly raw and beautiful Taylor Swift lyrics - they are pure poetry

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